Sometimes i get a little bit insecure. Sometimes i just feel worthless. Then, you call me beautiful, and it makes me smile. even if its only for a moment. Even though i know that by tomorrow, i will feel self conscious again. You somehow make it better. Even if it’s just for a minute.
A story from Alec to Taylor on March 13, 2012.
Alec killed himself on March 14, 2012.
Alec’s Story
There once was a beautiful, talented, amazing girl named Taylor, who hated who she was, but always seemed happy and outgoing in school. One day she started talking to a boy named Alec, who’s only real talent was in music that he wrote, usually about how much he hated himself. Taylor and Alec quickly became friends and shared many of their dark secrets with each other. Alec really liked Taylor, and eventually revealed to her that she was one of the only reasons he was alive. Alec also said that he loved Taylor, and that he’d always be there for her. Of course, Alec was only 15 and he and Taylor could only really talk through texting. But when Alec finally became old enough to drive, he would always be there as a shoulder for her to cry on, and was there to help her through any hard times she ever had, and to protect her from anyone who tried to hurt her, no matter what. Taylor and Alec stayed friends forever, and Alec was there for Taylor until the very end, and he had loved her every day since the day that they started sharing secrets.
But then i realized that i may as well be chasing the sunset. I may as well just wake up from my pointless dreams.
This is the same dumb bitch that told me I was a shit rider and that my pony was a worthless piece of crap that was never going to amount to much in a show ring.
WELL FUCK YOU OBVIOUSLY HAVE NO SOUL SCREW YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAnd to add to that. You’re a spoiled ungrateful bratty ass motherfucker, GLEE HATES YOU TOO
I agree completely. If she doesn’t like glee and their covers, then uhhh DON’T WATCH IT?
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I look back at these, and feel chills down my back. When i look at them, i feel anngry. Angry at myself for letting it happen. but i also felt worthless. I can’t mean a thing to the person who did this to me. He’d do it all over again if i gave him the chance. I want run far away. I want to go where he can never hurt me again. Won’t you please join me?